Ends with a teardrop

So remember how I ate KFC and I said I was going to burn off all the calories? Well I actually did. I burned 670 cals and it took 85 min. God it made me so weak. But when I stepped in the scale the next morning I lost 2 lbs. How cool is that? All I need to do is burn 100% percent of my calorie intake and I lose weight. I guess I kind of already knew that. Its just nice to see it happened.

So I'm going through a divorce with my husband and I use the calorie restricting to keep my mind off him. Its all I think about now is dieting and stuff. I'm depressed. I miss my husband. My whole life is out of control right now. I'm 23 years old. I should be happy with my husband, maybe having our first child. I'm old fashioned. I've always dreamed of having a family. My soon to be ex ruined it for me. Now I'm on the verge of suicide. The only thing keeping me going is my weight loss. Its only been 3 weeks since he asked for divorce. But do you want to know when he told me his decision? On my fucking birthday. I cried for a while and then got drunk with my brother at TGI Fridays. I've been depressed ever since. At first I ate everything in sight and gained a few pounds. Then it turned into extreme dieting. I've lost 7 lbs. so far. I don't want to keep feeling sorry for myself though. I will just continue focusing on my dieting and exercising. When I obsess over it, it keeps the focus off my ex. My heart hurts when I think of him. I feel more numb when I work out for a long time. I hope I wont turn all fucked up in the head over this. It really hit me hard. I'm my only friend right now. Not really the kind of friend I need at the moment.

I want to look like her. I love her skinny legs.

Posted by Thin is bliss at 9:41 PM