A place of solace

My ex is seriously fucking with me. He asked me to go to dinner with him and his mom. Why would he do that? And of course I said yes. I still want to be with him and he knows it. He called me 3 times tonight just to chat. I think he wants to get back together. But should I? I'm seriously too weak to say no.

So far I'm doing shitty on my calorie restricting. I had 870 cals today. I seriously only want to eat 300 cals. I have no control. I should have went to the gym also but I'm just too lazy. At least I worked my butt off at work. I'm going to go buy some cough drops tomorrow. Those are always good at suppressing my appetite. I also have some zoloft to suppress my appetite. Last time I took zoloft regularly I lost 12 lbs. without even trying. Zoloft is an anti-depressant if anyone wants to know.

I work 2 shifts tomorrow so I really don't know how I'm supposed to make it to the gym. Plus I'm going out with my mom also. I look like a fat ass though! How am I supposed to attract any guys in the state I'm in? Thankfully work distracts me from eating. I usually almost feel sick to my stomach when I'm off. I love it. I'm done with my ranting now. Goodnight.

Posted by Thin is bliss at 1:45 AM