To unpathed waters

So this is my first post. I'm not sure how to start out. I am a diet obsessed girl who feels very alone. I'm constantly counting calories. I compulsively over eat and I compulsively starve. I am at a supposedly normal weight for my height but I really think that's a load of shit. The US just tries to make fat people feel better. I am 5'2" and 108 lbs. I definitely consider myself chunky. Who made up ideal weights anyway? Well I'm going to eat a lot of KFC right now and then burn it off at the gym. bye bye.